Yesterday
March 1, 2010
Yesterday marked 7 years of change. 7 years. Just typing it makes it seems like such a long time, but when I think of it in my head it seems so close behind me.
Seven years ago my life changed. I dislike change, well, drastic change at least. Everything changed in an instant. Sometimes I still like to imagine that it didn’t. That things are the way they always were. That’s he’s still around. But then, you know, I get a flash of reality and my eyes well up and I have to say…. “I miss you, Dad.”
In like a month it will mark a year’s worth of change. Somewhat drastic change. But this change has had more visible positive effects on my life and so I don’t find myself crying over it. That was a big change after 7 years, too. Wow. I don’t like 7′s at the moment.
I have Honey. I have Jarod. I have a job (for now). I have a place to live. I’m not dying. I have a car. I’m not starving. I have lovely friends. I will make it through. I will. I must. I can. I am.
