Hello Again
January 1, 2012
So, it’s been quite some time. Things have changed. People have changed. I have changed.
So I might possibly have a mild kidney disease. Or it might possibly just be sand in my kidney. I wish I could be more certain.
I’ve had so many expensive, time consuming tests that have yielded very little information. It’s hard for others (especially doctors) to understand just how much I’ve gone through, how much I’m going through, and how I’m still standing. Am I supposed to give up? Would people understand me better if I did?
People change. It’s hard to completely let go of the past. It’s hard to watch people you’ve left change and become different people. Almost as if you were the one holding them back. Except, you have to remind yourself that you were the strong one. You were the one keeping it all together. But it’s hard when they don’t include you in their life and they are completely okay with that. Perhaps I should just forget it. Forget them. Move on. Yeah, let’s do that.
